Falling sick on the day of N"level for english
Hey, to all my classmates in class and friends.
sorry if i worried you guys when i didn't turn up for the english paper..
my allergies suddenly just came back... woke up early in the morning with a bad stomach ache and suddenly my eye started to with a burning feeling and i couldn't breath properly because my throat started swell up.
it's was really scary, at that point of time i wasn't worried about my allergies but i was worried about my n'level exams because i couldn't afford to fail my english paper.. but thanks to some of the helpful teacher's in school i had my exams in the hospital instead.
as my mum sent me to the hospital, i was suffering of course. you wanna know what was the dumb part about all. My mum speaked to mr Chui and he said" can your daughter come back to school a not, if not she will fail her paper!"
my mum and the doctor actually said said the same thing" what?! she cannot even breath you expect her to do her paper? "
okay that seirously totally sounded really insane plus Mr Chui was being helpful at all at that point.
well... okay before i did my english paper, i took 6 pills at one shot... kinda sleepy cause i was doing my paper at the same time. but, after awhile things got better man! i thought i needed to take a jab or something which i don't like cause i hate needles!
but this incident wasn't as bad as last year because i needed to stay at the hospital for observation. 3 days.... you know that can really bored you to death!
enough of sickness.
well.... today went to school and met up with zubaidah and aini in school did my own math's revision of course.. than did a little drawing for zubaidah... cause she... couldn't think of anything at that time so help her. la la la... after that got scolded by mum cause she called me like what? 10 time i didn't answer her phone call "guilty"... but at the end got back from without getting scolded.. heng ah.
you know,some of us people, really need to learn how to respect people decision and stop trying so hard cause at the end it's not WORKING. it's useless.... plus, stop sounding to me like without someone or whatever you'll die..... DIE.
it's so stupid.... S>T>U>P>I>D
grow up, you're talking about secondary school not some love bird secondary school, if i can not border why can't you.... stop irritating me, stop buzzing around me, stop pushing your nonsense luck with me and just leave me alone cause i'm not listening to anything you are going to say.... because all of this will just go in and come out! so just move on with you're on life..
i'm damn heartless in fact i am.... so so so so....
continue with whatever you want i'll just hurt you further deeper and more painful.
the only nice part i can say is: i'm thankful for all deeds you shared with me and during the time i spend with ____. in many ways you change me alot and also made me understand alot of thing that once apon a time i didn't understand at all. as time past i realised alot of mistakes i made and i didn't want to repeat them again, it's always good to give chances but some chances are either being forced or pushed. those are not call chance those are you personally want them... you want to get it. have you ever wonder, what were the few other ways in keeping other's happy and not having to follow some of your friends who just uses their mouth and talk and at the end they themselve can't even handle their own problems? that's the problem with some of you. you care too much about people and you didn't border about your own. thought you did but you did not at all.
don't you ever regrett some decision you made?
don't you ever think for the best for the person any yourself?
i know what's best for ____ do you know what's best for me?
i'm someone who can live with or without a companion. cause i've learn to be independent.... i'm not going to cry at put myself in such a difficult position and make my life miserable. you wondered why? why we have this kind of a emotion? it's naturally created by you... your mind...... it may not take seconds to change your mind set, but it take time...
time was actually all i needed to have to get my mind straight about what i want best for ___ and best for me. and that's make me less stressful and not thinking about it.
i always felt that i was being the irritating one sometimes because i didn't spend time with___ enough. that's my fault but as soon as i came to my sense i know what i want. i already tried my best to respect you for who you are and what you are.
when you have to let things go... let things go..
all this only needs time.
whatever ___ did for me, i never took them for granted. i took them seriously.....
there are like so many things i can say but, if you don't understand, it's really useless continue saying because i'm very tired....
@ Friday, September 11, 2009Friday, September 11, 2009.
