back for another post, anyway maybe after a long time since we fought, we became stronger somehow and i myself learn to understand the true meaning of friendship.
lately i also don't feel like what we use to be me last time before we fought and it's very different, i knew that he would seek for your help someway or another and certain things i maybe to much in some way. but i'm trying really hard to forget whatever happens a few months ago and start with a fresh one.
few days ago my mum ask me" who is sebestian?" she found out about the letter he wrote to me and i was like "nothing really. i won't want names from my classmates to be sound in my house.
he can say so much here and there, his blog his personal messages, i tried but some how things doesn't really work out at all. can't.. not because of what i think but, naturally. you know 0% felt
how to say it try loving someone again but cannot.
when his not around yea, i feel werid somehow.
i don't know how to show, cause i dont' want to hurt.
whoever were once close to me, they always get hurt i don't want him to get hurt or anything of that anymore. can you see how low i've been taking things so low.... so mile.

i hurt you before i don't want that to happen. i don't feel good..
it makes me feel like leaving you to your own and don't even appear at your sight.
which make me feel that you might feel better too.
i felt nothing really like, chatting,or hanging out, or all that. just normal la.
so normal yet so akward.
maybe i tried alittle to hard to get you to understand, and you got sick and tired too.
i'll stop than. i've to understanding my close buddy in class 'v' a long itme ago.
if i can help i would.

i hope that i didn't say anything to piss or misunderstood you yea.
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