Muzicallious:D

I don't wanna tolerate.

2010-01-30T07:28:00.000-08:00

FYI, don't Fk fk face please, i ain't tolerating. wanna fk face go some where else cause you're not wanted here. so i rather you FK off somewhere else and GL.

IHI.

2010-01-23T05:51:00.000-08:00

i hate this so much! i want it to go away.
I'm sorry to say i Hate to feel this way...
... sadness and unable to be expressive at all.
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT so MUCH.
End it..... please.

i'm hate this man

2010-01-13T06:53:00.000-08:00

i dislike being emotional because that's my weak point, why did i feel that bad.. why..
i don't know why.... i'm giving up soon, letting all this go and never try going back again.

Nothing is Better.

2010-01-12T06:00:00.000-08:00

okay, peeps back to english form, quite trying to even keep going with the korean words.
love the new school, teachers and friends there.
currently i'm feeling down but, i'm alright... chaoz.

Loved haah!

2010-01-09T04:09:00.001-08:00

오, 난 사랑에 빠졌어요 .. 당신은 그것을 믿을 수 있습니까? 내가 너희들을 물어볼 것입니다하지만 난 아무것도 당신이 말하지 않은 그런것 같습니다.

Two days till Christmas!

2009-12-23T00:35:00.000-08:00

나 는 다른에 대한 느낌은 많은 것을 최근에 나는 그 이유를 알 수 없겠는지 모르겠 승리했지만 당일 잘못되고 퇴락한 승리했지만 당일 싫 알고 싶지만 대답을 기다리 조만간 내가 알고 있는 것을 가지고 내게 말하려고 하셨을 것입니다. 느 리고 꾸준히 괜찮니? 나는 시간이 필요하는지 여부를 소화 나기를 듣고 나를 용서해 정녕 플러스입니다.

Gotten N'level results.

2009-12-18T02:12:00.000-08:00

okay, my results are out and i got 14 points. haha!
well, now deciding where am i going to go from here and it's so irritating because where ever you want to go there's a need of money. i have no idea now, this coming Monday evening will be heading down to raffles campus to take a look at the business course all that.. might be taking or maybe not...who knows
To my peeps that are waiting for their O'level results all the best yah! hahah!
:p jia you! jia you!

The long hairs GONE!

2009-12-15T03:46:00.000-08:00

hey hey, the long hairs gone, anyway..today went to my mum's place to help her with her work and all that and had fun with the children all that, though there's some problem here and there with my younger brother but whatever it's over. alright. i've been saying that i'm very bored in fact i am really..helping my mum it's only in the morning but after that? BANG BORED! but what can i say results are coming out this coming friday and i'm very nervous. i pray hard it's very good and pleasing results! well seems like i am going to ITE after all even though i thought so much about alot of thing while waiting for my results but i've gotten tired so just do well, enteer poly... maybe i'll get whatever i want only after all the studying all that haha. don't worry jia you!!! hahah!

I'm getting werider!

2009-12-13T06:31:00.000-08:00

hey, people i'm back again after such a long time. i was lazy to update actually... sorry.
lately i have really no idea what i'm thinking really..is either there's something wrong with me.
all day i've been either out, or just reading the book of TOTAL DEVOTION, practicing my piano, just hanging over at my "so called sister house" to accompany her.
am i so into the lord nowadays? following jesus instruction because i starting to love him very much?
that must be it really... i don't know...i can't sleep at night, i sleep late hours, wakes up late...
now i'm left with 4 days till i'm taking my N'level results and what will my results be? pleasing? disappointing? miracle? i don't know, i'm rather unprepared to find out the results this coming thursday.
i've been tired all day, not because i haven't been sleeping properly but many thoughts just runs through my head every night, and every action i do i have no idea what i'm really up to or up for. like i said "I'M SO BLESSED, THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!"

SHUT UP.

2009-12-08T07:15:00.000-08:00

you know what? many people, around.. has seriously a idiotic sucking mouth really...
i just can't stand their insults anymore.
what wrong with you people really... what do you guys really want from me by insulting really i don't understand...
sorry la, i'm not up to your expectation or something. at least i'm being honest about it and i don't brag at it all the time...
don't you feel like lousy or something whenever you open that mouth... i feel sad for you. because you can't make good use of your mouth really.... whatever come out is words of PAIN.

What a werid Band camp?

2009-11-24T17:14:00.000-08:00

band camp for me, was actually a very happy and special day for all our Ex-seniors.
well, yesterday was rather a very funny day we all met about like 7am at fajar mac and actually seat there for and hour and a half till we actually went off and head to school.
when we had to school the very first thing was we seek our band teachers for a classroom key so that we could practise the song"Heal the World by Micheal Jackson".it was kinda last minutes thing... the practise was very tiring really... after practise we play poker cards since we're having a break(LOL sorry bad senior example), well since we all got tired of playing so we decided to head to the music room to hear out what the juniors have been practising, and the two song they have been practising are "Alvamar overture and The monmouth overture" that was being played by ngee ann secondary when we had their SYF. hahah, when i tried teaching them during the sectional, it's was rather stressful, cause the running notes in Alvarma was like "WHAT?" .. hhahah, okay la the piece just that i had to play slowly than i was able to get the notes and articulations right.
soon Mr, yeo came in his short shorts really and said he wanted to do a mini combinr with the woodwind, so okay lor combine. this year i felt that the juniors are rather shy and not there to play and all that, i hope the next time i see them they will play much better and much more confidence while playing.
i sat between 2 junior and they seem so quiet. LOL. haha nevermind maybe because they don't really know me or something hahah, jia you all my beloved juniors i will await that moment to listen to your running notes in alvamar overture, hehe.
lol, it was like already 4 plus going to be 5 like that so me, zubaidah and vanessa made our way to rajar to have our lunch and it was a very late lunch too. when i got back....( OMGOSH)
ROD DINNER, makan again... hahah the food was good but sadly i couldn't eat cause i'm too full after eating my chicken rice.
all the seniors sat two rolls of banches on our own chit chatting about our pass time band camps all that and i really miss it all. hahah.
i heard that this years band camp was more lor less a training camp for the juniors to get the feel of band since they have been away from the main band for such a long time. (RING) after makan all nead to our bunk and started telling ghost storys haha freaky lor.. juniors and seniors all gather can sat down and start sharing about the different areas of our school that was once haunted and accidents..
soon it's time to sleep yawns... all the seniors shower about 11.30 like that.
lol, i said i wanted to stay awake all the way but fell asleep at 2am... because was too tired....

okay not to long ago we just had our breakfast and after the band members have their band practise i'm going to have my Band practise... so sleepy....okay i don't care later ah must at least go back home to put my things that i go for band practise... walao, if not ah later when i head to bukit betok people would think all of us are like tourist or something bringing so manty things to a secondary school hahah, what the hell. zzz.. erm erm erm...

next week i'm going for a malaysia camp from the 2 dec to 5 dec but i've got a problem that means when i come back on the 5 i'll be so freaking echausted what the... hiaz. shit i just remember i haven't even touch my piano at all lor. oh my tuesday i just remember i have piano lessons and also haven't do my piano homework yet. currently in the school library... lol we have 1/4 playing games and 3/4 blogging all in a roll... lol. okay la very tired tonight when i get home than i'll tell you what happen after my band practise okay? hahah! BRB LONG LONG LONG TIME LATER

apologies

2009-11-17T04:23:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry for the used or words in my blog, i was rather upset and disappointed with people start insulting other or myself. because i don't enjoy it, it shows me no sense of respect for who and what he/she is.i have enough of this crappy nonsense already, i don't really give a shit alright, what i know for sure is that those ugly words that come out from he/she's mouth have no right to comment about others. you know what the bible ever said this, god gave you a mouth to speak good words to others and encourage them.
what i'm trying to say is though i'm angry my langauge yes, it's not nice to hear that's because we're angry and it's part of expressing. but in other words it's still your mouth and the words. it's alright if some don't agree with what i say it's totally fine really. but i'm just stating to people.EVERYONE NOT EVEN ME IS ALLOWED TO INSULT A PERSON FOR WHO AND HOW SHE/HE IS. get the picture right.

just STFU!

2009-11-16T08:16:00.000-08:00

you know what?
sometimes people should all mind their down fking business and stop insulting me for who i am...
if you think it's fk fun to insult someone than you're wrong.
who the fk you think you are to insult me.
why can't accept the fact? or let just say i'm a fk attraction that distracts people?
people just SHUT THE F__K UP Alright.. you know nothing about me
so shut your yap!
seriously i'm getting sick of this shit that you people give me all the time.
you're not any fking better than me either way...cause you're not me!

Longest day of my life!

2009-11-12T04:51:00.000-08:00

wow, today is such a long day... supposingly needed to head to school for NYAA meeting today to give the draft, but i haven't finish it yet so. i didn't go. well. after that instead met up with zubaidah to buy the cake to celebrate aini's and syifa's early birthday, since i'm going to malaysia this coming saturday.:D
it was really fun. but i was quite tired cause i woke up rather early today due to stomach ache. but anyway... syifa was kinda shock! aini.... hiaz..! can don't use that brain of yours? aiyo like that the surprise not fun you know? hahaha! well.... played card games all that... i was the CHAMPION ROASTED PIG.:D(smiling with teeth) you know why? because i couldn't take the card which cause that slow reaction. hiaz. hahah but was fun... nice try guys! next time you'll guys will be the pig!
today we also manage to finish up one of our composed songs! so proud!!!!
hahaha i think the name of the song was "MOVING ON"
it is more of a love and country song.. which actually first sounded like a friendship song, but at the end turn out to be a love song hahah! okay.... those who are lucky i bet you all will get a chance to listen to our song... currently we'retry to piece them all together properly... sang till my throat was pain. but who cares i love the song! ROCK ON BABIES!
hmmm... i've been thinking lately really....
i wanna know what does every thinks of the word"FRIENDSHIP"?
i wondered for awhile...the word friendship really thought me a lot of meaning. and those who think that friendship is something simple LOL ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR DREAMS? GOT THE PICTURE YET?
everyone think about it yo.

2009-11-09T04:21:00.000-08:00

Hello! i'm back... when fishing yesterday was really cool! photo on top i was bored!
it was really cool over there i mean like, once in a life time my uncle caught 2 baracuda!
man! it really can jump!

GOOD WORK DEAREST JUNIORS

2009-10-25T22:51:00.000-07:00

Hey, my dearest clarinet juniors, it has been really fun with you guys during spectrum night itself.
hey but that doesn't mean you guys don't practice hard okay.
oh yes i nearly forgot, LAO HOR BU, make sure you don't get nervous and become my clarinet tomato! if not MUHAHAHAHAH. you're dead.
i'll visit you guys again during your band camp! see yea

today for me must be the most boring day of my life, i've been sleeping late, waking up late, doing nothing but just staring at the computer updating the blog.
well, i have to help my brother with his studiesw as his exams are coming up soon next week, so gotta force him to study, you know brothers lazy dudu.
i haven't taken my lunch yet because i'm just too full to eat right now. next month will be working part time should be kinda cool i can say, one in a life time experience to work. after that once i get my results for n'level( which i really pray that the results are very pleasing if not i'll chop my head out) i'll start focusing on the course i'll be taking in ITE. i don't like the sounds of ITE not because it's sucks but the people over there. you might never know what kind of a friends you'll be seeing there and the way they behave. this is where the road of all secondary school friendship starts to go off slowly... depending on how strong are our friendship with our closes friends are.i know i'll miss the past, and the memories i have through such a short journey in secondary school.
hahas, i better other concert and performance i'll be acting would be even better in different ways out there.
doesn't it seems like we're aging so quickly? a moment was 13 years old secondary 1 like some nerd, than BANG! 16 years old now secondary 4 graduated!that is so so fast man. very. can i don't grow up? LOL what a dumb saying...

SPECTRUM

2009-10-22T05:04:00.000-07:00

well, tomorrow is spectrum must be quite exciting.,
for me, i don't feel so excited about it but, okay only..
tomorrow is going to be a long long day for everyone,
today went to the national culture centre the place is huge man!
behind the hall all that, it's kinda creepy. it looks like a hospital from the inside the toliet are so huge and so quiet too, i wonder how can anyone go in alone.
anyway, today was just a day to feel how does it feel like on stage,
the playing was not so bad but was rather low low energy level. with the hall area so big we needed to play even louder than before.i believe everyone tomorrow is going to enjoy all the performance and really get to know about asia!
enjoy yourself girls! and guys! chaos

fishing trip at taus

2009-10-18T06:54:00.000-07:00

okay, today was a half day of fishing at taus, caught a few, some were really good fights!
well..... i was kinda busy the whole day, want to fish also i can't. because i had to cut the prawns and take the fishes and place them into plastic bags.=_="
my uncle also thought me to think like a fish in order to catch them i learn a few things how to tie the line all that. how to fix, because my dad going away to Australia to work for a month so gotta learn how to fix up. pretty easy actually. well there's a big fish catching season coming up i can't wait for my uncle to tag me along... wa... that mean BIG FISH BIGGER FIGHTS WOOTS! rock on!
wow, got myself burned. hahaha chouta. looking like som ZEBRA!
moving on the next thing. tomorrow got to go for medical check up.
which i thought i wasn't really a need but for my own good duh, GET YOUR ASS TO NUH!

2009-10-17T01:26:00.000-07:00

do you guys remember this photograph?
wa, out of so many i only had this which had all of us inside in this picture during our speech day!
can't believe time is really passing by so soon and not long all this will be over.
sobs but, hey! we all must keep in contact okay? this picture will always be remember during this years together as a group and good friends with one another!
loved to you all!

performing for spectrum

2009-10-16T07:09:00.000-07:00

okay, i'm happy that i'm performing for spectrum but ain't totally like up for it somehow. but doesn't matter it's my last year i'll make it my best and remember all this nice memories. well, lately have benn going joggin actually. since there's nothing much to do here and there while it's kinda having some kinda holiday now.. hahas.okay got to go!

2009-10-01T20:45:00.000-07:00

back for another post, anyway maybe after a long time since we fought, we became stronger somehow and i myself learn to understand the true meaning of friendship.
lately i also don't feel like what we use to be me last time before we fought and it's very different, i knew that he would seek for your help someway or another and certain things i maybe to much in some way. but i'm trying really hard to forget whatever happens a few months ago and start with a fresh one.
few days ago my mum ask me" who is sebestian?" she found out about the letter he wrote to me and i was like "nothing really. i won't want names from my classmates to be sound in my house.
he can say so much here and there, his blog his personal messages, i tried but some how things doesn't really work out at all. can't.. not because of what i think but, naturally. you know 0% felt
how to say it try loving someone again but cannot.
when his not around yea, i feel werid somehow.
i don't know how to show, cause i dont' want to hurt.
whoever were once close to me, they always get hurt i don't want him to get hurt or anything of that anymore. can you see how low i've been taking things so low.... so mile.

i hurt you before i don't want that to happen. i don't feel good..
it makes me feel like leaving you to your own and don't even appear at your sight.
which make me feel that you might feel better too.
i felt nothing really like, chatting,or hanging out, or all that. just normal la.
so normal yet so akward.
maybe i tried alittle to hard to get you to understand, and you got sick and tired too.
i'll stop than. i've to understanding my close buddy in class 'v' a long itme ago.
if i can help i would.

i hope that i didn't say anything to piss or misunderstood you yea.

just relaxing really.

2009-09-17T05:51:00.000-07:00

for the past 2 days i've been really relaxing over my studies and all and that! doesn't make me slack.
but, somehow, i shouldn't pressure myself to hard in ways cause i think when the exam time comes will be even worse, oh well, i'm at my living room right now blogging what i needed, hahaha watched transformers in class todays, just realised that the show is so cool. dot. cause i didn't got the time to even watched the show.

resting day!

2009-09-12T23:25:00.000-07:00

okay this totally sucked, i woke up this morning with my allergies again! irritating isn't it?
argh, but overall i'm okay... so guys don't worry guys!:D
okay i guess i'm going to be home all day and study too hahah gotta go!
peace out!

Falling sick on the day of N"level for english

2009-09-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

Hey, to all my classmates in class and friends.
sorry if i worried you guys when i didn't turn up for the english paper..
my allergies suddenly just came back... woke up early in the morning with a bad stomach ache and suddenly my eye started to with a burning feeling and i couldn't breath properly because my throat started swell up.
it's was really scary, at that point of time i wasn't worried about my allergies but i was worried about my n'level exams because i couldn't afford to fail my english paper.. but thanks to some of the helpful teacher's in school i had my exams in the hospital instead.
as my mum sent me to the hospital, i was suffering of course. you wanna know what was the dumb part about all. My mum speaked to mr Chui and he said" can your daughter come back to school a not, if not she will fail her paper!"
my mum and the doctor actually said said the same thing" what?! she cannot even breath you expect her to do her paper? "
okay that seirously totally sounded really insane plus Mr Chui was being helpful at all at that point.
well... okay before i did my english paper, i took 6 pills at one shot... kinda sleepy cause i was doing my paper at the same time. but, after awhile things got better man! i thought i needed to take a jab or something which i don't like cause i hate needles!
but this incident wasn't as bad as last year because i needed to stay at the hospital for observation. 3 days.... you know that can really bored you to death!

enough of sickness.
well.... today went to school and met up with zubaidah and aini in school did my own math's revision of course.. than did a little drawing for zubaidah... cause she... couldn't think of anything at that time so help her. la la la... after that got scolded by mum cause she called me like what? 10 time i didn't answer her phone call "guilty"... but at the end got back from without getting scolded.. heng ah.
you know,some of us people, really need to learn how to respect people decision and stop trying so hard cause at the end it's not WORKING. it's useless.... plus, stop sounding to me like without someone or whatever you'll die..... DIE.
it's so stupid.... S>T>U>P>I>D
grow up, you're talking about secondary school not some love bird secondary school, if i can not border why can't you.... stop irritating me, stop buzzing around me, stop pushing your nonsense luck with me and just leave me alone cause i'm not listening to anything you are going to say.... because all of this will just go in and come out! so just move on with you're on life..
i'm damn heartless in fact i am.... so so so so....
continue with whatever you want i'll just hurt you further deeper and more painful.

the only nice part i can say is: i'm thankful for all deeds you shared with me and during the time i spend with ____. in many ways you change me alot and also made me understand alot of thing that once apon a time i didn't understand at all. as time past i realised alot of mistakes i made and i didn't want to repeat them again, it's always good to give chances but some chances are either being forced or pushed. those are not call chance those are you personally want them... you want to get it. have you ever wonder, what were the few other ways in keeping other's happy and not having to follow some of your friends who just uses their mouth and talk and at the end they themselve can't even handle their own problems? that's the problem with some of you. you care too much about people and you didn't border about your own. thought you did but you did not at all.
don't you ever regrett some decision you made?
don't you ever think for the best for the person any yourself?

i know what's best for ____ do you know what's best for me?
i'm someone who can live with or without a companion. cause i've learn to be independent.... i'm not going to cry at put myself in such a difficult position and make my life miserable. you wondered why? why we have this kind of a emotion? it's naturally created by you... your mind...... it may not take seconds to change your mind set, but it take time...
time was actually all i needed to have to get my mind straight about what i want best for ___ and best for me. and that's make me less stressful and not thinking about it.

i always felt that i was being the irritating one sometimes because i didn't spend time with___ enough. that's my fault but as soon as i came to my sense i know what i want. i already tried my best to respect you for who you are and what you are.
when you have to let things go... let things go..
all this only needs time.
whatever ___ did for me, i never took them for granted. i took them seriously.....
there are like so many things i can say but, if you don't understand, it's really useless continue saying because i'm very tired....

First day of N'levels!

2009-09-07T06:06:00.000-07:00

OMGOSH! first day of n'levels today.
looked and seem kinda scary but, seems to me it's a normal regular test.
hahaha.......
you know what's the worse part of everything? i needed to wait for my next paper like at 8am in the afternoon! LOL, our GCE n'level listening was boardcast through the radio werid.
anyway, ain't difficult or anything... still came take the toughest of the paper.
okay nothing mreally much to post so i guess i've got to go! rock on. gotten our class T, looked liked hangten brand.LOL!

Boring man!

2009-09-03T17:05:00.000-07:00

blogging time.(about yesterday)
well, nothing much happen yesterday too, normal lesson.
played a little DJ max, super rusty already haha, my hands were ~shaking~!@@
after that had assembly stupid n'level briefing was super boring and thought that today the band member we performing during assembly but at the end heard that the assembly was cancelled.:D saved!but.. still need to wait till after our one week holiday than we get to see them peform ponyo, wow.. amazingly without us this time. i hope is a blow to me! i would be real proud.. than stayed back to help zubaidah with her art stuff.. LOL felt retarted having to tape the newspaper... after that started to rain. can say accompany aini and zubaidah to bangkit. well.... before we even got out of school i've got punked with a stupid prank call.. badly fooled. okay for the fun of it. hahaha after all i also pranked them too before and got carried away too.
but nevermind hahah! cool.

back again about today's update with yesterdays one together.
well.... stress i say... Mr.ho is going to give me like 8 stacks for different secondary school maths' paper that makes it 16 total with paper 1 and 2. argh!
nevermind... i must get a A1 no matter what i need personal tutoring! argh!
now, math worksheets and all the moment i see it i felt a my mind was in a total blank i couldn't do any questions. gotta keep focus! argh!
people around must be wondering what in the world am i thinking right now at these period of time when n'levels is 2 days time.
i'm not thinking much. i just don't border about a lot of things happening around.. be it personal issues or classmates or whatever that is..
i need to be alone. myself just me.. quite and silent in my own world and life right now at this moment. i need to think things out right now... i need to know what i doing, what i'm in need of in my life, what's missing, what's making me feel that way, why are my emotions going a little crazy and up down. i got to cool myself..
maybe i just needed to tolerate these things in secondary school till the end and the weights on me will be gone.... for good.
and here comes a new life route ahead of me.:D
band band band, i felt that i lost the passion of being in a big band. i've not idea how i feels like being in the band and performing to people in public..
memories still floats my mind with all those great achievements we earn through our hard efforts!MISSES TO THEM ALL.
hiaz, life still has to go ON.
okay blogging time is over may a new day come tomorrow:D
OH yea! TO FAY, ZUBAIDAH,AINI
do your best for prelims and o'levels!

CHILDISH!

2009-09-02T06:10:00.000-07:00

hey hey, back for another moment of blogging!
normal school day today, nothing much really happen except revision for EBS and stuff like that.
than, did revision for CPA aka computer application.
after that, wuu! off to go.. than became childish for a day or makings furniture! LOL
hmmm... i don't understand some people really, they seem to be wasting alot of time thinking and doing stupid things. What The Hell.
who cares anyway, it's non of business too.
i find it kinda useless, to be trying to do so much and yet people like me, who doesn't give right now, doesn't really need your appreciation or anything.
don't try your luck cause they are not working either,.
well, since n'level are coming soon like what? 5 days?
wake up. stop wasting your time.

WHAT A BORED, FUNNY DAY.

2009-08-31T06:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
Mrs Soon
Mr Soh
Mr Lim BT
Mr Lim SH
Ms Toh
Ms Chew
Ms Cheah
Mr Ho
Mr Seah

this is to all my beloved Subject teachers!
this morning we were ask to perform a ACES.
kinda really fun and all cause i was doing it well... some were not really doing but whatever.
teacher's day concert really rocks because it was really hilarious and funny. well congrats to MRS SOON again! for the Most DEDICATED teacher award!
haha, okay after teacher's day concert was so tired when to the canteen waited for zubaidah and fay while they when around looking for the teachers and handling them their teachers day gift.
than it was my turn, me and zubaidah went around looking for mr Koh because we wanted to pass to him a teacher's day card from us both. well.... walk almost everywhere couldn't find so just placed the card on HIS SNOOPY CAR! okay, from far the card was very obvious cause its like RED! haha.
we also had another card to give and that's for MR YEO..
but since there's no band so no choice... HAPPY DELAYED TEACHER'S DAY!...
hiaz, after that, accompany them group. to take aini art board than headed back to school today. done my science! woot!
theres a short poem for you
Thank You! I really appreciate you,
Your helpful, giving ways,
And how your generous heart
Your unselfishness displays. I thank you for your kindness,
I will not soon forget;
You’re one of the nicest people
I have ever met.

cleaning the reeds !
It's me with my BABE!

okay after that became damn tired reached home... slept too tired!
okay got to go la.

2009-08-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

today seem to be a tiring day for me.
saw my friends with a hi and a bye... than study time..
today came to school like 9 am in the morning cause i was very tired and was late when i realised that it was already 7am in the morning..
well after lessons off i went to catch a movie with wen jie and sebestian at vivo.
not so bad, when we took the bus around 2.30pm, we already felt like falling asleep in the bus cause we were all tired. i did slept a little cause i couldn't take another moment to keep myself awake.
when we got there we catch a show named Orphan.. NC 16 yo hahah.
very nice and violent too....
no the way back was already late cause we were like waiting for the bus driver to start work. dot dot dot.
got home now using com, nothing much happen to day.
got to fly bye!

2009-08-23T07:19:00.000-07:00

i'm bored, random shot!

2009-08-22T08:24:00.000-07:00

I"M STRESS AGAIN! BANG BANG BANG!

hello i'm back again for another blogging moment.
finally i'm okay with ___ already and at least i felt better within these two days after the problem happen for at least a week.
it was a really long story, and how it ended.
okay, i ain't talking about it at all cause i still feel very bad about what happen on the both of us.
today... zubaidah and aini came over to my house..well supposingly to be going for SWS, but i wasn't really feeling well, so didn't went to day.
allowed zubaidah to use the computer.
than we dance for fun 2ne1- fire.
zzz, was tiring but dman fun to learn the steps.
dance dance dance!
after than they needed to go cause one going to ah ma house,the other one going home reason behind.
OH COME ON! their breaking fast. hahahs!... man! i was hungry...."grumbling of stomach'....
used the computer all the way throughout the day... doing and looking for stupid blog skins which NON of them we're even nice lor.
a moment ago was watching a horror movie with my mum, and it's like the stupid ghost that was scary but the rest was like DAMN CHEAP SHOW LA.
i was like HUH at the end of everything cause i didn't understand eventhough i was watching it half half.but LOL keep jumping around. rediculous man!
well, now the time is 11.36pm and i'm still using the computer... alone down at my living room.. with my sleepy looking face. still need to keep the computer... wa sian man!
k la... blogged other stuff some other time than.. i'm dead tired....

2009-08-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

oh yeah! prelims are over!
sobs for me!
N'level is ocming within 2weeks time hiaz!
okay! hillary jia you jia you!

2009-08-16T17:18:00.000-07:00

hmmmmm.... i'm still feeling so lousy all day.
it's like losing a leg or something in my life.
i've got things that i really wish to do, what them to happen but everytime i try..
it fails to work, it fails to be heard.
i hate it, i so damn shit hate this!
i should have known a long time ago... i should have.
but, i didn't i did nothing at all.
my peers from church always say.
these are challenge given to you by god and he wants you to take up that challenges and face them.
i believe his always teaching something through all this that i'm going though.
but after awhile everything seems to be like so painful so torturing.....
i do not know how long i can tolerate longer........
i everyday for me could be a normal regular day like anyone else... probably i won't even be blogging any of these SHIT.

i hope things are normal and back again.
i don't want things to be different, since we're all graduating soon.
this is something i held long inside.
I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN THE ONE ADAPTING TO PEOPLE
ADAPTING TO THEIR CHARACTER! ALMOST EVERY SINGLE ONE!
IT WAS NEVER ABOUT ME.
YOU MIGHT NOT AGREE. BUT I STRONGLY AGREE!

i'm disappointed with myself.

2009-08-15T06:16:00.000-07:00

i don't know what's wrong with me lately.
The sudden anger made me see something.
it made me see, how much hatred i could make out of such a small problem.
how bad, i could have done to my friends around me. how guilty i could feel within a day,how bad i could felt doing such a thing to her.
i was too over, i am and i was.. i couldn't forgive myself even if you were okay about it or you were angry with me or pissed off with me.
the moment, we both us kept quiet was like hell and pain for me because i wish non of this would happen.
i when home keeping quiet though out my whole dinner, trying my best to get over it, but i couldn't... a another few hours later, my mum called me upstairs i gotten a bad scolding from her. i took the scolding without a single word to say, but just when down, dripping with tears of anger to myself, i'm so angry i was. i even thought of punishing myself so badly,(i did it because i deserved it)
i punched the wall several times, and i didn't felt any pain at all. what does the pain even mean to me anymore? it's nothing it's just a sudden bruise than all of it will recover back again. my dear friends i tried hard not to do such a thing, but.. i can't. sorry.please do forgive me.

2009-08-08T01:41:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE!
SORRY LATE POST!

THANKS FOR CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY!

2009-08-02T00:40:00.001-07:00

OH NO! I MISS NCO CAMP
it's has been a long time since i can remember i was having my NCO with the other band members from different schools.
i'm being so random lately,i really don't understand "somepeople". if anything goes wrong and you're not happy about it, that's your freaking problem la.

TIRED& STUDIES

2009-07-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

Okay,chiong studies for science,english,maths and all the other subjects.
cannot tahan another day slacking, Ah! when is night studies! why so long still no news about it?
Nevermind everything will pay of at the end of the day.
okay, i got to go, to freaking tired to continue blogging further.
HileoNayoko___" signing off with panda eyes 0___0

YoyoNayoko is SICk.

2009-07-26T23:24:00.000-07:00

HELLO everyone!

back after a long time since i have update my blog.
yesterday didn't seem to be any of a good day for me because i'm sick.
and also gotta eat those disgusting taste medications.

bad news. i night need to go for a mini operation on my jaw due to lose muscle.
and i might be able to paly my clarinet or even talk at all for weeks.
but, no hard feelings i'll go for the operation recover and start being able to play my clarinet again.
yup. kinda scary cause i don't offend have to go through these kind of things but, yup.i want to recover so yes i'll go.
yesterday my family and i celebrated my grandma birthday! 65 yo!
sad part i couldn't eat a thing my medical conditions.
but it's okay, they enjoyed themselves.
well, i can't wait for my turn unless i recover right?
next week babe! next WEEK! WHOWHWOWHOWWHOWUHOUWHOWUH!
those who know it. you're right! those who don't! dude, i'm disappointed in you!
old link again!OLD LINKA!CHANGE IT!
lately, i've been angry at some people for certain reason because their foolishness really pisses me and also they take them really lightly as if nothing in the world have happen.
it's really okay and it's fine if they don't really border because it's kinda non of my concern and not gonna effect my life badly either, till the day i lost my patience, that's really it! cause since all of these kind or people are stubborn than what the fugging point to even tell you. you might say, don't wasting my time. HELL YEA GET ON WITH LIFE. i'll be glad too get on with life and at the end not going to known you as my once a apon my friend as a freak will be great. maybe you ain't thinking clear enough in your HEADS that's why.
plus also, i'm okay if friends around me don't really supports certain of my saying. i'm perfectly fine. because it's your own thinking and own judging i don't really care right now, i don't.... so best is not to waste time explaining for others as i said i am not giving in anymore, useless to explain save your energy.the day i'm shouted by you. would be the day i'll keep my mouth shut and not speak to you at all but, punch the walls of my house with anger.
if you're reading these, it might be you. you should be ashame._|_<<<< see these in future it would be you being pointed at like that.
okay gotta go REST ma' heads on ta' pillow!
HileoNayoko signing offa!

Changed of blog link, (:

2009-07-12T21:14:00.000-07:00

HELLO:D
MY LOVELY/EVIL SISTER IS BEHIND ME RIGHT NOW!!
&&&! That's AMANDA!! :D
EVIL GRINS**
I'VE CHANGED MY LINKA ALREADY,
LINK ME AT:
http://www.hileonayoko-ily.blogspot.com
thank you! CHAOs

2009-07-07T07:03:00.000-07:00

man! today N'level oral exams i kinda nerve racking!
but, i'm happy i got over it, i bet i really did my best today.. was kind of not really prepared for it.
well, after my oral. when back kinda early. but zub came to my place to study. was a really good one.
wow, i can study, cool. not like the past few months.
i'm tired lately, can't really be bordered.
anyway, i can't wait for this coming saturday!
family day man! WOOTS!
hiaz, but i can't attend SWS on that day. gonna be boring.
captains ball game man! family vs family. rock on!

2009-07-06T06:31:00.000-07:00

today, what a boring youth day it was.
woke up really late today, because of yesterday, reach home around 11.40pm going 12.
when back sleeping throughout my afternoons around 5. must be really kinda of tired.
OMG! i just remembered tomorrow is my GCE N'level oral. must be super nervous.
nevermind i'll do my best! jia you!

2009-07-02T06:02:00.000-07:00

Hey, updating time!
today,came to school as per normal, met up with hakim.
entering the school like victims of H1N1.
kinda werid but i think by next week everything should be back to normal.
better that way.this time round, art festival. i hope nothing goes wrong.
i've got a strong feeling about it, but i hope it doesn't happen. because honestly at the end i'm not going to be the one to take on all these misunderstanding, reasons, why,what happen..
i had enough, it's my last year already no fights.
we have many compeitions coming up, challenges to face. but basically, most of the things is about not just winning, is about learning something from it and enjoy yourself. plus anyway, once you win. it's just going to be a short while of perfection.
anyway, nothing really much to say.. kinda feel everyday is such a BORED.

Flyin' away
HileoNayoko:D

2009-06-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

hey hey, back to update my blog properly.
N'levels are coming. 64 more days!
N'level prelims too, 30 days!
but some how, i don't feel as nervous as i used to be when exams are coming.
i believe that i'm going to do really well for both exams!
i've already wasted enough of my time in resting, now is time to bucked up.
hmmmm, secondary school life, is just like a cycle repeating itself over and over again.
but people around me and others just seem to see it in such a manner where it's something new!
many things i do in life and action i had a reason., but many mistaken me as if i did all this on purpose
and start asking me a bunch of questions. i don't intend to repeat all this explainations because, i'm tired already.
in life we are given a option, but people tend to take all of it for granted.
thinking that " hey this time i did it wrong, than it's okay"
but have you thought how many chances in life are you given within a year?
wondered why people treat us like crap?
the different expects of life?
i believe many never seen nor realised..
but anyway, this is just my sharing about my life.
and i'm open about it to people who wants to know.

Happy reading!
HileoNayoko'__'

2009-06-29T05:20:00.000-07:00

I can so hit my head against this CIRCLE!

2009-06-18T07:25:00.000-07:00

'__'HILEONayoko.

That's me! haha.. i always wear specs, but sudden random take.
it's a long long time ago, i think secondary 3 or 2.
hahas, bored.

2009-06-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!

sorry that i didn't update or anything, haven't been using the computer either,
have been focusing on remedials, and studying home.
though out my june holidays, it's kind of bored acutally and upset over many things.
but, it's okay it's all over... i love KIM BEUM!
hahahs, his so cute! handsome....
Band members, heard that your band camp has been cancelled due to H1N1.
i was really looking forward.. but no worries, there should be one during december i hope
because by than i should have graduated already.
hahahahs, time is really flying fast.
anyway, CLARINETS! you guys must be looking forward on our clarinet outing right?
hahas, sorry to make you guys wait so so so long!
well, next week on a sun there's a philharmonic youth concert coming up, and i was thinking on inviting all of you guys to come. how's that sound?
catch a movie maybe first than go for the concert, it's Free intermission. hahas
starts at 3.30pm.
will confirm okay soon! and about the shirt heh!
you guys saving money a not!!!!
hahahs!can't wait to go out with you guys soon.

2009-05-18T20:30:00.000-07:00

HELMETS ON PLEASE! we're going DOWN!

we're the cheer you up dudes!

dude, i'm seriously being extra!

heh, just friendly couples!

say CHEESE!

Hiaz, building the sandcastle. aiyo@! so tiring! but BOLAHAHAH!
the castle is ours!

okay, this years mid years results isn't so surprising after all, i studied but since like it didn't turn out that good. so, HILLARY jia you! jia you! got bug up! well yesterday went sentosa with my groupa. of course, vanney thanks for editing the picture! "hugs & kisses"

okay nothin' much to say accept disappointment.

2009-05-11T06:54:00.000-07:00

A little short video clip after our speech day!we sang super loud! thou, off tune! hehe

2009-05-05T18:17:00.000-07:00

HEY!, since mid year exams started didn't really go online much to update my blog, want to wish every single one of you all the best for MID YEAR EXAMS! :D study hard yo! anyway, i'm pursuing clarinet now. intending to actually buy one and continue on what i left off from the band. sort of don't want to waste the experience in school...and intending to go NAFA, which is like HELL LONG for me right now because i've got to get a O'level cert of course!=_='' but i'm willing to take the risk. it may take me a longer time for my dream to come through but, at the end it will pay off! :D hmmm...... now cool, is it to tutor your own school band? :D most likely i ain't telling them i'm from greenridge scondary. SURPRISE sounds better!

Speech day!

2009-04-25T07:27:00.000-07:00

WE DID IT!
Hey Band Peeps! miss me so soon already? i'm so Touched!

sorry to keep you guys waiting for the photo's there's like at least 100 plus!plus! video! hehe. sorry if the video shake alittle.

heh. video and pictures get from me! my phone! causeheh, memory too too big!

ONE MORE THING!

To all my secondary 3 juniors:

now you guys will be the one's taking over the band and become the seniors, no matter how angry you are, how frusrated you are with any juniors, don't scold them as they still are still learning, be it.. how slow they are or giving problems. promised? anything look for ME. yea?(message me if anything goes wrong i'll come)

Thank you!

To all my secondary 2 juniors:

promise me, don't give so much problems okay? in a sense not all,some. be it, you dont' like any of your seniors do still respect them. they are the once leading you. as part of the band, learn to tolerate one anothers character and attiude.promise me? i want you all to really practice hard and in 2 years later you guys will be the one bringing GREENRIDGE SYMPHONIC BAND SYF 2011 with a Soild Silver.okay? smiles! this is my way of saying"nothing is more important the the bonds between SENIORS and JUNIORS and TOGETHER that makes us STRONG together as ONE" okay? anything message me! :D

2009-04-12T17:54:00.000-07:00

Hey band peeps, though i step down i've still got a last performance with you guys! solo band performance? remember? spectrum too if possible.
hahahs, don't worry no one is going to be mince meat with or without me around.. you guys got to be twice the time better than me by the time i graduate and come back to visit the band. but, as a senior by all means i'll really come back to teach you guys de lah, i ain't that bad to leave you guys, plus! band is like my medicine! without it i can't live on! hmmmm... i was thinkin' maybe if you guys are interested you guys should join band communities outside. it's fun. you get to side read at least 8 pieces at one shot! how cool is that man! but, joining this kind of communities ain't just about fun is also learning.

Listen to your playin' during syf! i'm damn proud!:D

2009-04-06T19:12:00.000-07:00

Boom!, sobs.. going to step down after speech day, all the best my beloved band members! haha i believe the next SYF 2011 we're going to get a silver this time! anyway, i don't talk to people who don't appreciate what the band does. if you have senses, you would courage not talk craps. you don't know how to play any insturment shut up okay? it's useless and stupid of you to bug people and think you, yourself is freaking damn good. non of us are good, that way we have to learn. didn't anyone told you that?stupid? immature? no sense of self control? what?? come on lah. secondary school already can't even behave like a immature person. GROW UP MAN, we maybe lame, talkative and more. so? at least it brings all of us happiness joy when we're playin' music? what about you? nothin' at all so BOUNCE!

2009-04-01T05:42:00.001-07:00

OUR GOLD MEDAL IS WITHIN OUR GOLDEN HEART!

A day just pass after our SYF. i'm still feeling sad,i've got to get over it soon.today during lesson alot of teacher console us band member because most of us came to class lookin' really sad and down. for me, i was sad well sleepy and tired in fact.. after school Mr koh wanted all of us to be in the music becuase Mr yeo wanted to talk to us. i sort of came to the music room emoin' thou. listening to music. Mr.koh came in and started reading the letter written by hui hui and rosalind, i felt reallt touch by what they wrote to mr koh. soon, mr yeo came lookin' at his face i felt sad and felt like cryin' another time. he told us that he was speechless to even say anything to us at that moment.. we understand that he was actually really stress out, because all three school that his teaching are having SYF this year. now, as our SYF is over he won't be comin' for monday band practice i think till all the other 2 school have finished their SYF.Mr yeo maybe sarcastic to us, but i really appreciate his teaching as my conductor and my music director. and for mr koh i really thank him for being our band teacher and leader. i've learn so much from him thou we don't get in contact much. i was really really happy when i heard that we are having another Own Solo Performances!:D this time, we're given a chance to chose 2 grade 4 piece to perform. how cool is that? i would love to play alvamar overture! in the winters 1730s!blue ridge saga! follow the river! man! i love all this pieces! but i'm hoping more challenges to come. and after i graduate i'm going to take private o levels and GO NAFA! and become a tutor or a musician. and i'll come back to teach my own fellow GSB BAND MEMBERS! BAND PEEPS, this Speech day, let's make it the best for all your seniors okay! GSB JIA YOU!

SYF 2009' happening.

2009-03-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

Well, here i am again to tell you what happen today. it was as usual a nerve racking experience for both seniors and juniors who are coming for this compeition for the very first time. i woke up really early today, feeling excited but and the same time my confidence was dropping slowly, but soon i pick myself up thinking that i shouldn't think so much because there's band member who really need my support. came to school with zubaidah, seeing all the band members in school preparing themselves with their full band uniform. i was nervous that my allergies came.but, i cooled down quickly.entered the bus felt like crying because that bad memories started coming back to my head slowly.. but i held back my tears.

arriving at Singapore Conference Hall. again , the same feeling came to me, i felt like crying. we were sittting at the same holding area, same tuning room,same stage! that was when i was secondary 2. Finally time for our performance. standing at the entrance. tears filled my eyes with water. time to go on stage. while playin' overture 1 half way that cryin' feeling came again. i could have chosen to just let my tears flow. but i didn't i hang out through out. after all this was over got off the stage havin' many band peeps cryin' because many parts they couldn't play and broke down. i feel that, you may have not played that part during the whole performance, but i believe you guys didn't did that on purpose. okay, when in to listen to all the other bands, waited for the result for a very long time.

Suddenly, it all became so quick. it was already our bands turn to have our results announced. we Received a BRONZE. i was disappointed but, again... those tears of mind is just to relax myself.. but i believe each and every single of my band members that after today's experience, you guys will take it even more serious in 2 years time. and i as you Drum Major will come back and watch you guys during SYF again! wearing the BAND UNIFORM! :D

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!

2009-03-09T06:21:00.000-07:00

Hey Band peeps! time to get really focus for SYF. can't bear to waste any more time,i know it's tiring, tough, irritating in ways, but think about it, after all this are over all your efforts will pay off! HAHAH. proof to the teachers, Mr. Yeo! we can do it. we are able to play together as one band one sound. one HEART BEAT! OKAY? JIA YOU GSB!!!! ONE FOR ALL ALL FOR ONE..... PUT ON OUR CAPS!!!!:remember 31/march/O9! NO TIME TO LOSE.

YOU HAVE MY FULLEST SUPPORT!TRUST one another while playing. listening to one another, feel the music. enjoy!Connection!!!

2009-02-23T21:40:00.000-08:00

Hello, back to post again. long time never update already, okay. last saturday we had school exchange at pasir ris secondary school.hmmmm..... took at least an hour to get to tampines.okays, slept on the bus was very tired i woke up so freaking early. anyway, everything when really smooth. best part our band was prepared before actual given time.sweet. hmmmmmm.... when we got to pasir ris secondary. we saw changkak sec,punggol sec, teck whye sec.plus our school.... okay the bands were small but POWDERFUL.hmmmmmm.... we learn alot, we got good comments, but.. still not good enought we're still not together.okay. we will WORK HARDER! hehe.we saw our ex-conductor. OMG! lame lor. his soo EEWWW. G-A-*. first thing was like looking for me and my friends. GEESH. LOL):

rediculous!i've got like 25/40 or maths. damn, my math's teacher ask me to stand becuase he didn't like it. ass****.but, whatever man.wow. now our band shedule is like 4 times a WEEK! tired. SYF SYF SYF!!!!! faster pass. but must get a SILVER. SOLID ONE. ONE BAND! ONE SOUND!

BYEBYE.

PULAU UBIN TRIP!

2009-01-31T23:38:00.000-08:00

YOYOz... so fast and it's already feb, just came back from pulau ubin. wow! was fun hahahs! thou i went there for only a day or so. hmmmm.... i love the scenery from pulau ubin! especially night time! rocks! hahahs.. sitting in a hut, enjoying the wind, listening to some music, and the sound of the waves....! it's was my older sisters birthday, anna! hahahs! she's 10 years older than me. but we treat one another like sisters when we meet! again HAPPY BIRTHDAY! hahahs. she was sleepy thou=_=Zzz.. but...... hahahs had some fun with the cakes! chocolate some more! yum! hahas best part. we had like 2 dogs as our guards! cute! hmmmm.... night time ain't really good and comfortable cause there were like 15 of us! and all stayed in one small chalet! pro? hahahs! hmmm.... after we settled down we had a little tour around.. there were many biscycle store plus you rent them and you need to pay like $ 2++++ only for 1 whole day... but sad.. didn't got the chance to rent cause it was quite dangerous over there as there's moving cars around... my cousy and me plus my siblings when down to catch mini crab.. cute too! but! the worse part was when we tried catching them, they'll grab you with their spincel and if your too hard there HANDS will FALL! and it STILL MOVES! omgsh! eeeewwww.... lor. i got bitten alot of times hahahs! my grandma was like catch a few more i want to bring home for my grand son.... at the end.. the baby crab also DIED.:( hah! lol.. what else? around night like 12am the next day.. i was still awake cause i couldn't sleep me and my cousy we sitting outside looking at the see and the bright red sky! than... later we started getting tired so when to ZZZZ!!!!! woke up having like BODY ACHES! cause what i was sleeping on was like so hard!OUCH! best part night time we all were sort of playing with the fans! cause at first we were very warm.. so we turn it too FULL speed... after awhile we started getting cold.. my mum came in lowing down the fan.. wow! in my mind i was like SHIOK!BETTER!
but........like 30 minutes later it was full speed again! hahahs! ok i was tired we wanted to go paris theme park! WOOT but at the end also never cause was too tired!

REFLECTION MATTERS!

2009-01-23T04:37:00.000-08:00

hahahahs! finally got something post!...
today as usual have to walk up at 6am to prepare myself for school....
lol, i attended like class for like an hour plus.....
9.30am met up with syifa,carmen and zubaidah of course...
have our quick bite, than we headed to the Arts hub because carmen needed to take her bass clarinet.....after than had to change up . hahaha took our own sweet time...
after that went to put our things at ish, than went down again and bought drink cause we're thirsty..."( is the school so budget? lol supply a lift lei!) we had a good chat with mr heng! hahahs! his so funny man... thou it's like lame jokes. his eyes were like goldfish eyes red..! ewww..... ok soon was performance. man went it started i was so not prepared! when syifa said 1 2 3.. i was like still blur blur... at the end the start i played wrong notes and produce*excellent sound=_=....
hahaha, after that was quite ok. wow... we were very HIGH! best part.... my class won the hamper design... hahahs! rocks! hmmm........after all that FINALLY resting time man!
we had a good rest at the canteen.

well, i've realised all the things that people dislike about me, i intend to really try my best to change my stupid actions that hurts and irritate people..yup! if i want my friendship to really last forever! i really got to do whats right.. to keep my friendships lasting long... i really ever wonder whether do you really mean what you said.. or even really realised your mistakes? or simply to you.. it's like i'll maintain a good attiude for awhile till they are ok, than i start my old stupid and lousy attiude..... i've already said... it's up to you. i ain't your decision maker, i'm only your friend whose only able to console and confort you when you need me. but if you don't want to change that attiude of yours. i can't do anything even if i'm your friend.every action counts! how long do you wanna go on being this sucking you and face your life like that? think about it man! seriously!

WAKE UP!

2009-01-22T05:24:00.000-08:00

there are many things that i have to learn and get it straight! no more keeping it myself.... i'm sick of this frighten me.. i've got to learn! confront people, even if they like it a not... life is tough, that's when my heart aches most..... cause think won't always turn out as it seem the way you wanted it..emotionally heart ache can say.. but now!NO MORE! got to wake up and start realiseing what is really happening around. which i'm so blind about!

2009-01-21T04:28:00.001-08:00

i'm lazy to update so tahan..... lol

2009-01-13T03:58:00.000-08:00

oops. never update... anyway i haven't been myself this days.. i've been feeling so frustrated and trouble, i don't know why.. i get angry and pissed off easily accept i never show. i've always kept it in me...i don't know how to tell anyone how i feel cause in me. i feel so empty.... something empty. some things are not right... am i thinking too much? or it's just me? sharing my thoughts is hard... cause i don't know who to trust anymore... i come home feeling down, upset,miserable. for DAYS already..i come to school.. putting on a mask making people think that i'm happy... i feel so talkative, an idiot.when i talk to my friends,i'm like trying to make a fool out of myself or i'm just trying to get an attention or something.......i am not closed to my friends anyone... i feel as if i'm just needed people around me.in my mind i wanna schare my thoughts but, another part of me just won't say it, many of you might say..."just say la, or you can always share with me?" if you understand. that's good but all of you aren't me.... so how to understand.
maybe i share you might think you get it but you dont.

WALK OFF AND GET!

2009-01-06T04:30:00.000-08:00

let me tell every single one of you. if i ever hear another insult you'll get it! i had enough craps already. yeah i'm inperfect in many ways. you think your perfect? insulting people as if your so big...... you know what? people will just start looking at you as if you some moron with your dirty mouth full of unpleased words. picture that in your mind freak. i don't tolerate....! everyone.
that is my warning...

2008-12-24T05:41:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS! CAN'T WAIT.....

2008-12-22T02:12:00.000-08:00

today, had to wake up around 6.30am to get myself ready for school's band exhange. so hmmm. meet the others around 7.30am, but i only meet syifa. that zubaidah and aini i met them in school. lol. ok it was really lame i fall the band member in, than worse thing was we had to wait for the teachers to come so, fall the band members out. so all went up waiting for ms soo. lol... than had to set up instruments, chair too. hiz. so many chairs like what 140?
the 2 bands that join us were
*dunearn band
*ngee ann band
ok we had to like perform our choice piece. please lor was freaking paisei man. we got second, dunearn third, ngee ann first lol. ok no offence but we played like SHIT. =_= lol. but, again we just don't have the confidents la.
sad thou,but we as band members shouldn't have the thinkin that they are better and we suck, we have our own stand. just that we haven't show them the real GREENRIDGE SYMPHONIC BAND.all of us just got to learn you make a point and effort to really practise hard for this SYF. take everything seriously and not a JOKE. those who are reading, hope you get my point.... really STAND on both feet and really put your heart in it.
OK. short story.
there was 2 islands
island A
island B
there was this sheep who lives in island B.
In island A, there's a famous master who could teach anyone to fly within 3 days....
and the sheep really wanted to learn how to fly...
he really wanted to learn how to fly so, the only way that he could get to island B was to swim,
SWIM SWIM SWIM! as fast as he can.
well, when he got there, he started to learn on how to fly,
3days passed and have learn how to fly.
so......... after that he needed to get to island B.
instead of flying back to island B.
he swims back......
the end.
anyway, what my story is rying to say is,
when you learn something new, use what you have learn and apply them.
so to the band members, i hope that you guys really give all you got, to your sectionals, band practise combine.whatever mr yeo teached you guys.....thou sometimes his angry here and there la. do your best.

WOO! band members JIA YOU!:)

2008-12-19T20:10:00.000-08:00

CONCERT CONCERT CONCERT! ok i'm crazy and to over excited about it!well,it's held at victora concert hall. WOOT!!..
The Philharmonic Youth Winds23rd December 2008

Tuesday7.30pm at Victoria Concert Hall$12
I WANNA GO! anyone interested?

ok, back from concert, the school was north vista secondary school. lol. i don't know the bm there. never seen her before.well song wasn't so bad.. i've enjoy... but half way was a little boring la. cause the pieces we quite slow..... lol. ok i love the ending! remix! oh yeah i wish we had our own alumni band.. lol that would be super cool! a day where we come back, and perform. hahahs! well....... anyway, i'm lousy at direction, so on my way, i was quite scared i lost my way but so far no, ok accept the fact i took a longer route.0_0.lol. bad.but, at least i learn something, what are direction sign board or... lol. so blur blur.cause i never been that far on my own, cause most of the time is like car,car&CAR? hhahas, don't travel of myself all the time.had lots of fun with aqilah and her band members thou i never talk to them..0_0 but they are alright.hehe..:P

22dec band practise.exchange
29dec NCO outing! WOOT!

31dec NCO outing again! WOOT!

if can go both will be cool.oh yeah AQILAH. must go arh. must!if not......you know what happens.

WANNA WATCH WANNA WATCH WANNA WATCH!

When are we watching? Peeps!

2008-12-16T06:06:00.000-08:00

hehe.

PIcture above are pics from SENTOSA!

19 dec i might be going for vanny's ecp outing!
20dec going for north vista concert with AQILAH! lol
YOz,KID must take lots of crazy photo's yeah? WE ROCK!
22dec got combine band practise!can't wait!
29 dec NCO outing!!! oh YAH! i hope i can come!

2008-11-29T07:04:00.000-08:00

TODAY ROCKS!!!

early int he morning met up zubaidah,hahah than when to fajar like 10.30am?

than afiq,vanessa,zubaidah,aini,syifa and hidayah hah their breakfast! ok i didn't eeat cause i wanted to save the money for later...lunch ok... cool.. made the band member come to school like 11.30am? early but it works! i'm going to do that...... have a good habit! k. fall in on the 4thfloor outside the arts hub.....mark attendace all that. check their of course! kkk we were all super WARM like hell..rosalind gave out tissue!! hahahs! funny... k natural.

than we had warm ups tuning.. all that hahs ok.... than was played the pieces... you know test test!

sounded nice but can be better hahahs!k than after that was MR YEO he came late but nevermind....got his smiley face BALL! hahahs he played with it.... ok he was the emcee also funny man! hahsh no offence but his a lousy emcee...ok after that we when through rehersal... than the sec 1 when through their solo... cool...... we really encourage them! hahahs well DONE juniors! k what else. er... well practise practise bla bla.... than like 3.11 all went to get themselve prepared...FULL UNIFORM....! me, zubaidah aini,syifa when to fajar to eat... but! we had to rush back like by 4.30!!!! so ate quickly than we when off........ reach school all tired! but prepared.... than not long......

CONCERT STARTED! than mr yeo camp out of no where ran in and we started playing march blus sky! so paisei! i took out my ocver my clarinet ligature came out with my cover than i missed the whole front part! hiaz!!!!!!!! but at the end luckyy....... k after that we when to the back to take our sit and wait for the sec 1 to perform.... wow! first time did so well! k after than they had their combine piece! well done again!! haahahs! our EX SENIOR CAME! so glad to see them of course!hahahs ofater the sec1 we had a interval for 25 minutes! cool! than interact with th conductors and also the teachers ex seniors!k than was our performance again!

the songs we played were

*OH WHEN THE SIANTS GO MARCHIN IN

*PIRATE OF THE CARRIBEAN:DEAD MAN CHEST!

*THE HAPPY WANDERER

*CANTUS JUBILANTE

ok comments now....

the 3 piece we had was ok. than cantus was the BEST! i like it! i really enjoy.. cool cheered alot....

here and there for teachers,conductors and mr KOH!!!! and mr lee! nearly forgot! k bla bla... packed up all sorts!!!! chairs....

than when home lor!

BAND MEMBERS YOUR ALL DID WELL! I HOPE YOU ALL KEEP UP THIS GOOD SPIRIT FOR ALL BAND PRACTISES!JIAYOU JIAYOU!

2008-11-22T04:01:00.000-08:00

BAND CAMP

20NOV-22NOv

first day, we exco's went to school earlier so that we could prepare the games.OH my.. the sec 1 junior really amaze me! all were so punctual! some even camp like 7? before we even like started...?!?! brief them...... BLA3...... than after than had a short talk in the AVA with mr koh. after the talk was GAMES!! how interesting? well, there are 5 stations of course. they are water balloon race,captain's ball,unbrella,wet paper scissors stone and last was dog and bone.

me and zubaidah took group 3 and all of them ROCK!! we all were so high when we played all the games!hahah,we cheered the loudest.... very into. i LOVE them all... hahahahahah! our group ended early,so we allowed them to wash up, than HERE COMES LUNCH! MUhahahahah!

ok, lunch was like super early, hiaz... worse thing was when i shouted"GSB YOI...." so soft man they shout... was hoping it to be a better one but, not so bad la. all tired already. after that was like.....hmmmmm..all had to go to the arts hub for their warm up, because after the warm up, we are going to have our CW6.jurong camp. OMG. their band are like so small? half of our school band? and they played so well....... i'm like shocked. learned alot from the tutor. his name was mr ling.....sorry don't know how to spell his name. he was hilarious but at the same time we learn alot...

we learn about balance, articulation. how to listen. make one sound..

alot.. i've enjoyed it so much. afte that we had, interaction with jurong... man they are so friendly. hahahs after that was.shower time and dinner.. ok for me i didn't got the chance to bath, because i was like super busy.....STRESS of course. alot of people can tell....... after than, watch movie in the AVA... it was about a bunch of JAPANESE students...they are amazing within 7 month, they went for a compeition, they got 1st for the past 5 time!!!!!!

ok after that was like BUNK>>>INSPECTION! omg... i can't believe this.. the guys bunk was so much neater than the girls BUNK.

=_____=''' girls had to do jumping jacks.

lol. than was lights out.

second day, all of them had to fall in at 7 int he foyer.. hiaz. fall in brief them breakfast...... than was games... we had...TUG OF WAR>>> hahahah!!! it was fun.... everyone enjoyed it.GROUP 3 ROCKS AGAIN. worse nightmare....! my mouth was so painful swallon. and we had like band practise from 12-5!?!?!? but it was good... hahahahahahahahhaah.......

after that was shower, man i don't have the chance... after that was dinner with the band members. not too bad la the food can improve. hahahs!!! than was BAND PRACTISE AGAIN. omg! from like 8- 10pm???? than suppose to have games NIGHT WALK HAHAHAHAH! but.....=_= hiaz.nope. cancel

but,again nevermind we celebrated hidayah's early birthday! so again HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH! after that mr koh plus a few teacher gave out badges to people that had came for every band practise. wow amazing yeah... hahaha!cool. than me and hidayah gave ms soo and ms chee 2 beautiful ROSES pink some more!!! hahahahs! mr yeo and ms leong recieve chocolates!yum!

well Supper came of course not many ate! but it's ok.

not many like supper. some went to their bunk some came to the canteen. cake!!! i didn't eat! all i wanted was to SLEEP! so sleepy and tired. so after supper tell the band member what time to wake up.....

third day, because all was tired we exco actually woke up like 6.30!!?!??!! so i change the time a little later to 7.15am fall in.hiax again had to punish those who had fringes and filers man... worse complaint...... wa lao hello people we doing with you some more do double still can complaint arh?? nonsense. i don't take shit you know? while doing your punishment, realised your mistake. after that was breakfast. till 8.... than FOOT FRILL COMPEITION! wow... from 70? to like last 5 to 2 tl 1 the person issssss................form the flute section! you all should know!!!! hahahahs!!!!

after that band practise rehersal with mr yeo.....2 hours! than ECP(eastcoast park!!)

WUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fun man........ than BLA BLA BLA cycled.. i nearly fall that's what i know... i chose the wrong bike..... what the helll so short.

2008-11-18T05:32:00.000-08:00

Staring AFIQ!
AINI!

SYIFA!

ZUBAIDAH!

that's ME!

wonderful beach.

aini,syifa,zubaidah and ME!

Beautiful backs of our QM!!

LOVE the ART!

BALANCE! BALANCE! DON'T FALL!!!

HOORAY!!!! EXCO ROCKZ!!!

LOVE the east coast outing....

oh my! i felt like the photo's vanny took we so touching as if we all are all grown up our very last outing...... man! hahaha!!!

2008-11-11T05:20:00.000-08:00

today, early in the morning already had publicity...went to greenridge primary school,the school looked like a space ship! hahahas! well after that went back to school again, decided to go back home first awhile to change up before going for my band practise... lucky, no falling in... so tired than me, zubaidah and aini came to my house and played the swave board that we just bought not to long ago.. so fun. aini pick up so fast! played awhile than.......=_='' band practise

we were actually late already when we arrive in school, but......never get scolded so nevermind. that ms cheah, didn't allowed me to talk...everything last min stuff hate it man. doesn't she understand? we student like to do things on the spot..... like band room for example, when you move the things, won't you want to pack on the spot before things go missing? you still can say pack 2morrow, yeah! i remember! you don't get scolded is us..... your good man......... that time when my mum talk to you about the nco you also didn't allow to finish what she had to say!!!!? lol, dude. wake up al..... anyway band camp thing, i'll rather talk to mr koh personally than you.... every time you open your mouth and talk to us, you make me sound like an idiot...... as if i don't know anything, or what i'm doing.................gea't out of my face...!! crazyy.........

Signing away MANGO:[

2008-11-10T04:17:00.000-08:00

i'm here again, 3 days since i just finish my NCO band camp COURSE. oh my, i really miss the clarinet section! we had so much fun... i'll miss everyone and i'll never forget those happy and fun moments we had together.

Once a SECTION,Always a SECTION!:D

There will be more photos.

well, after the the whole performance was really happy but...something spoilted my mood, i knew that "you" were going to do that to me. you just came cause you wanted to support your friends. i'm not trying to say that i want "you" to support me. but, what you did really upset me not just me. others.... you think it's fair? i don't understand why people like "you" want to do this to ever single person who come in your way...."you" always do that, no matter how many people tell you, that your doing wrong all "you" know how to say sorry..... what?"you" think that is going to work? i sick of "you" your irriating selfishness..... i've got nothing to say.... i'm really upset. angry. i kept quiet all the way.. "you" just didn't realised at all....whatever la.

I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN.

SIGNING away MANGO:(

2008-10-31T05:41:00.000-07:00

DID YOU KNOW THESE FACTS?
I SURE DIDNT TILL NOW

Death is certain but the Bible speaks about untimely death!

Make a personal reflection about this.....

Very interesting, read until the end.....

It is written in the Bible (Galatians 6:7):

'Be not deceived; God is not mocked:

for whatsoever a man sow,

that shall he also reap.

Here are some men and women

who mocked God :

John Lennon (Singer):

Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said:

'Christianity will end, it will disappear.

I do not have to argue about

that. I am certain.

Jesus was ok, but his subjects were too simple, today we are more famous than Him' (1966).

Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ, was shot six times.

Tancredo Neves (President of Brazil ):

During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency.

Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died.

Cazuza (Bi-sexual Brazilian composer, singer and poet):

During A show in Canecio ( Rio de Janeiro ),

while smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said:'God, that's for you.'

He died at the age of 32 of LUNG CANCER in a horrible manner.

The man who built the Titanic

After the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be.

With an ironic tone he said:

'Not even God can sink it'

The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic

Marilyn Monroe (Actress)

She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show.

He said the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her.

After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said:

'I don't need your Jesus'.

A week later, she was found dead in her apartment

Bon Scott (Singer)

The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang:

'Don't stop me; I'm going down all the way, down the highway to hell'.

Onthe 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his own vomit.

Campinas (IN 2005)

In Campinas , Brazil a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend.....

The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of her friends and she said to the daughter holding her hand, who was already seated in the car:

'My Daughter, Go With God And May He Protect You.'

She responded: 'Only If He (God) Travels In The Trunk, Cause Inside Here.....It's Already Full '

Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died,

the car could not be recognized what type of car it had been, but surprisingly, the trunk was intact.

The police said there was no way the trunk could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the trunk was a crate of eggs, none was broken

Christine Hewitt (Jamaican Journalist and entertainer) said the Bible (Word of God) was the worst book ever written.

In June 2006 she was found burnt beyond recognition in her motor vehicle.

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus.

Many have died, but only Jesus died and rose again, and he is still alive.

'Jesus'

PS: If it was a joke, you would have sent it to everyone. So are you going to have courage to send this?.

I have done my part, Jesus said

'If you are embarrassed about me,

I will also be embarrassed about you before my father.'

You are my 8 in 8 seconds. I am not breaking this. No way!

I'M TOLD THIS WORKS!!!!! Bishop T.D. Jakes '8 Second Prayer.' Just repeat this prayer and see how God moves!!

'Lord, I love you and I need you, come into my heart, and bless me, my family, my home, and my friends, in Jesus' name. Amen.'

Pass this message to 8 people {EXCEPT YOU AND ME}.You will receive a miracle tomorrow. I Hope that you don't ignore and let God bless you.

2008-10-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

Bored,bored,bored.....holidays are coming but,it's a nightmare!! at least i have my CCA to accompany. oh my lor, our instrument were like sent for repair but,when i look at it again,it's DISGUSTING! IT STINKS! but, hiaz,still have to like use it. so no choice gotta clean it.now we're preparing for another performance...
i'm LOSING my VOICE alright.all the shouting.... i work hard all the way yeah...not going to allow something small like this to stop me!!!!man! i can't imagine i'm like going to step down next year......=_='' well gotta go.

mango signing away....:D

2008-10-17T07:59:00.000-07:00

Today, is the most boring day of my life. some stupid elective module. i just went over to paste my time.. like 7 and a half hours!!! sitting in the computer lab? i can go nuts man. well. than around 10.40 we had our recess. i was hungry so i went to syifa house to have my lunch, cause i was very lazy to even walk to bangkit. zubaidah and aini went to her house. because they were preparing themselves for jalan raya..." if i spell it right"

well, i decided i guess i won't be going to school on monday.because it's the stupid elective module but will be going in the afternoon or CCA........the teacher suck. his talks fast. at the start of the module, he was saying that he went to this school, there we girls and guys who touch his butt.....ewwwwww. so disgusting........

i was like"please man this is greenridge secondary school......" duh........ everyone didnt' do his work because all felt that it was boring..... so instead of doing the work that was given,we played games instead...... at least we were entertaining ourselves..... around 2, i left syifa house.. because they were leaving already. OMGoodness...... waited for the guys like?FREAKING LONG? it's not nice to keep girls waiting....... after that, went home.slept for awhile.... than watch tv.....couch potato...... k i've gotta go post some other time.

Mango signing away!!!!!

2008-10-13T18:57:00.000-07:00

HELLO:D
i've relink and updated my blog....
sorry for the inconvience.
link me yeah!